Trials and Tribulations of an Internet Grinder

So, it is the halfway point of the month and I'm a little dissapointed. Since I had decided not to start the 55's full time and I have yet to add a second monitor I guess a good goal for this month would be $2200 before rakeback. I currently am up only $729, which leaves me $371 dollars off pace. So in the next 15 days I must profit a little under $1500. I think that this goal is very reasonable and should be attianed as long as I get 300 SnG's done at the least. I am kinda assuming that the cards will fall for me in the coming weeks, i guess this could be a curse but this game feels like one big cycle. Soemtimes all is good and sometimes all is bad and as long as you are playing optimal during both of these times you will come out ahead. There are times when I'm running so poorly that I think I have lost the ability to be a winning poker player. Then after I cool down I realize I have played a little over 100,000 Hands of winning ring game poker and about 1800 SNG Tournaments as a winner, plus a few random tounrnament cashes. I am 99% certain that I ahve made about $8,000 dollars playing small stakes poker online over the last 15 months. This does not seem like much to me at this point as I hope to make at least $60,000 in the next 15 months, but in the grand scheme of things it really is incredible.